
Monday, June 27, 2011
Me? A plagiarist?

Thursday, June 23, 2011
the wisdom of the elf

"I am zen,
listen to me y'all,
I am not just another
brick on the wall"
"at peace with the world
at peace with myself"
" but who are you kidding?"
said the voice of an elf
"i see zen stones
in japanese gardens
calm and serene
tensed nerves, they soften"
"stones clean and smooth
one on top of another
with a small network
of ripples on the water"
"this zen stone arrangement
as rough as it can be
anchored on two slabs
that both look wobbly"
"a balancing act
of the stones by the beach
when here comes a big wave
won't these stones get leached?"
"no they are not ripples
that i see on the water,
but rough little waves
'hope not a tsunami starter"
"i acknowledge your wisdom
Wise little old Elf
what do you suggest I do
off the cliff, throw myself?"
"No, not at all,
dear stony creature
do not yet end
your promising future"
"polish yourself
let the water cleanse you
gain foothold and be strong
find your niche beneath you"
"you'll never reach perfection
that much is expected
but you'll be an inspiration
to the once weak, now strengthened"
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Delilah's Jewels: A Memento for Khel

a repost from May 30, 2010
My employers are husband and wife Jerry and Khel from Utah. I started working for them as a virtual assistant in October 2009 and we do the office thing online --many, many miles away from each other. We have very good working relationship and they are the best online employers I have ever had so far. Khel and I hit it off well from the start. But the fast-paced, good working relationship I was enjoying with them quickly had to slow down when she was diagnosed with breast cancer. The work we were doing together had to be set aside some as they got busy trying to find the right natural way to cure her illness. They travelled out of state often to visit doctors and from the audio journal she kept that she asked me to transcribe for her, I could sense how stressed she was. Bothered, worried, stressed, sometimes frustrated -- i sensed all of it in her recordings and my heart went out to her.
On Mother's Day, I sent her my poem "The Dream", which I wrote for my mother --which I regretted doing but it was too late to take the email back -- that poem spoke of what I remember about my mom who passed away when I was three years old. Khel has a son around that age too and I realized too late that it would give a very sad thought to her. I quickly sent her a follow -up email and told her that I just wanted to send her the sentiment of loving a Mother. She emailed back and very graciously thanked me for sharing. She did feel sad about "losing the mother at an early age" -- but she was in touch with reality and fought her battle with cancer openly and bravely.
Khel is an artist. One of her works of art is a big figurine she calls "Delilah" where she had embedded trinkets and glued them in place on the figurine's body. The result was awesome. When I visited her website, I saw pictures of the trinkets before they were attached to the figurine. Three pictures of different trinkets on the table and I was inspired to write a poem (as I usually do get inspired at the sight of a nice picture).
Here is that poem.
I am glad I wrote this poem and it will always serve as a memento of my friendship with my boss, Khel. Her sufferings are over. May she rest in peace.
Delilah's Jewels
keys, coins, pieces of brass
pendants, chains, that shine like glass
belt buckle and brooch, a lopsided earring
a thimble it is, not a tiny bell ringing
a Christmas tree beside a symbol of infinity
odd shapes and sizes, trinkets blinking at me.
i see a letter J, and a padlock do you see?
pray tell, where to find the lock's matching key?
flowers and leaves, no they are not green
because they are coated with a metallic sheen
a bolt, where's the nut?, an upholstery tack
is that a wagon, maybe there's a grass shack?
hoops and buttons and an artist's brush
i bet the brush would make the hound dog blush
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
my American dream
I have known Uncle Sam
he's from the RICH western country
that isn't so warm
'thought then that there,
everywhere there was snow
and that the United States was
the only country where apples grow
as a child I was told
it's the land of milk and honey
where jobs are nice
that give people lots of money
the people are lovely,
with golden heads of hair
believe me when I see one,
I can't help but stare
blue eyes, I tell you,
they look like blue crystal
their skin, white and creamy,
just like alabaster
the men are handsome,
dashing debonaires, so tall
the women are pretty,
as pretty as a doll
they speak the king's language,
they speak with authority
they sing with the same voice,
so lovely and pretty
my young heart was smitten,
I said, "one day, I will be...
among these lovely people
when I cross the big sea"
but my dream died an early death,
it was nipped at the bud
the given name I was christened with,
registered wrong, that was sad
someone said my misspelled name,
won't get me a passport, too bad
my young mind believed,
instantly killed the American dream I had.
years went by so quickly,
my American dream was replaced
in my own country,
I'll create my niche and rightful place
I stopped dreaming the dream,
for it, I had no time and space
'started feeling patriotic,
an American dream is a disgrace.
little did I know that
later in life things will change
human life, as we all know,
sometimes takes a turn that's strange
ahhh mid-life crisis
my life changed its course
a life-changing event,
turned out to be a blessing, not a curse
My American dream is back,
but not so much for the money
neither for the opportunity
to live in a snowy country
a brave shot at happiness,
with the love of my life
A tall order I know,
but without hope, what is life?
Thursday, December 2, 2010
tic tac toe

LIFE IS like a game of tic-tac-toe
choose your lot, be an X, or be an O
the object of the game, of course you know
score a straight line, make it so!
be sharp, be wary, look for that opening
the opportunities are not always showing
but look closely, there is always something
vertical, diagonal, go for that win!
when life has given you two O's or two X's
it is up to you to do the hard presses
Don't wait too long, the opponent also wishes
if you are not quick, your two X's will become misses.
Blue Magic
under the moonless sky
a calm and peaceful night
shall come and pass us by
listen to the water rippling
on the left, and on the right
straight ahead just keep on walking
till the bright lights are out of sight
the blue light, it beckons
hypnotic, like in a trance
when we get there we will reckon
peace and quiet from a distance
the soft light feels like magic
a halo... Buddhist... Tantric...
the soft glow, now I see
the blue aura of royalty
the high and the mighty
a mountain created
from out of a molehill;
something unexpected
I am confused, still.
an innocent attempt
to create poetry;
was viewed with contempt
made some people angry.
i didn't delay
i listened to social conscience;
put down the picture
the poem, they say, is the essence
a part of my brain
could never understand;
that part of others' brains
that saw it as illegal, in their parlance
shall I call it arrogance?
protectiveness out of place;
I gave myself solace
if it were me, I'd accept, with grace
was it, on my part,
an act of stupidity?
to use people's online stuff,
to create simple poetry?
I value my work of art
just like anybody;
from now on I will stay away
from the high and the mighty.
destiny
if you cannot be here today
don't add to my sorrow
please don't go astray
i don't want any promises
i want a heart that's true
i don't want hugs and kisses
if half-hearted, they just make me blue
my luck, i will not force
my fate, I cannot choose
my destiny won't change its course
so be it , I will not push.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
wavering faith...
the little girl in me
never grew up at all
i still dream of a doll house
complete with furnishings and all
i like them with all the trimmings
from the floor up to the ceiling
drapes and curtains and appliances
and other electrical devices
as a girl, 'never had my own bedroom
growing up, there wasn't much change
create my own corner, there was no room
in my dreams, was all I can manage
these days, pictures I see on the net
give me the happiness I can get
someday, before my time is up, i can see
someone will make the little girl in me, happy
my white-haired angel
-------my white-haired angel-----------feb06
Today a white-haired angel passed me by
and asked, "my fair lady, why did you cry?"
"A butterfly bit me", I told him a lie
"Butterflies don't bite!", "that, I wouldn't buy"
So I said, "Okay, listen to my story.
Then answer my questions, though they may sound gory"
He listened intently, albeit so patiently
Then scolded me briefly and said "I'm sorry"
I asked, "You're sorry?" with a little puzzled look
"You've made a mess of your life, look how many years it took"
I said "that's alright, now what really matters,
is that I have fled and escaped, soon nothing can bother".
"Don't rest on your laurels, it is too soon to tell,
that you have escaped unscathed, watch out for the bell!"
"Is there peace in your heart now, is everything well?
Until that happens, then the flowers, you can smell"
My dear white -haired angel, I know your name is WOLFIE
Weathered by experience, pain tears and glory
This childlike heart of mine, will forever hold you dearly"
In your heart of hearts, please, oh please, always keep Jeanie.
Let Go
from my camera's eye
green worm?
neon worms....
simple lights
blue
green
in the floor
green jade
and
blue sapphire
from my camera's eye:
elongate
when I am in motion
rotund
when i stare straight down
awesome trick
took away my boredom
for a while......
The Dream
Forever you'll be here, though apart.
Tears are Gems
about things I did and still do.
I thought about life and dreams
and wondered why I'm blue.
I came to know a simple truth
that's been there all along.
I learned that life is all about
being hopeful and being strong.
The hope you have inside your heart
will carry you through life.
The strength and will of body and mind
will counter all the strife.
At times I feel blue and I cry
and think all hope is gone.
But then I look again and find
that tears are gems that shine.
let go and let yourself a good cry
it washes over your soul,
when grief is gone and tears run dry
you're again ready for the goal.
Will I sit again and ponder
about life and what makes it blue?
Perhaps I will and now I know
it's a phase we all go through.
Monday, November 15, 2010
undoing the dreams
aling dionisia, kumusta ka?
Let her.
Love her or hate her.
Amused? Annoyed?
Whatever.
She's a welcome respite
from the Hayden-Halili craze.
Twit*er, Fezbook, Frndstr,
she's all over the place!
a debutante at 60
she'll dance till 90
a diamond-studded R*olex
does it make her complex?
'gotta love the boxer
'gotta love his mother
what about the father?
I don't know, ask her!